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if only you weren't a gemini. w4m at some point i'll have to come to terms with the fact that you are who you are. i'll never have anything more than a piece of you. but just so you know (and i feel crazy women want real sex Centreville Alabama for writing this in missed connections of all places, but that's what it is) i hate how much i think of you. i have always compared others to you and they never make me feel the same way you do. i hate pining over something i've always known i shouldn't even desire in the first place. i push you away because i'm too much of a coward to face you and tell you to just leave me alone. i'm not strong enough to end it because a part of me doesn't want to. a part of me wants to hold on to what little we share. so, if you're wondering (which you're probably not, and you will probably never see this or know i wrote it) why i can't see you. it's because i have to do what's best for my sanity and just forget you. hopefully i can convince myself that i am.
if only you weren't a gemini.